Reminding Myself to Breathe
“If you don’t think your anxiety, depression, sadness, and stress impact your physical health, think again. All of these emotions trigger chemical reactions in your body, which can lead to inflammation and a weakened immune system. Learn how to cope, sweet friend. There will always be dark days.” -Kris Carr
“Anxiety’s like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn’t get you very far.” -Jodi Picoult
“Worry is a down payment on a problem you may never have” -Joyce Meyer
“I may not be where I need to be but I thank God I am not where I used to be.” -Joyce Meyer
On July 22, I just felt so wrong. My chest was tight, my right arm hurt, my legs felt weak, and my heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest. I had the worst headache. I took some Tylenol and my family and I went to dinner. I started feeling a little better after I ate. I remember thinking that maybe it was because I hadn’t eaten much that day. Later that night, I just couldn’t sleep. I got up and checked my blood pressure. It was 141/90. I thought that was a little high. I finally got myself to sleep around 1:00 a.m. and I vowed to go to the doctor the next day if I didn’t feel better. I honestly thought it was either just high blood pressure or I was having pre-heart issues. I didn’t think it was a heart attack, but I was really scared.
Well, the next day I wasn’t feeling any better and my blood pressure was still high. Basically, he put me on anti-anxiety medication. For the last two weeks, I have been taking my medication, cutting out my caffeine, eating only fresh fruits and veggies, incorporating better vitamins, and doing cardio and yoga. I’m starting to feel a little better day by day and my energy level is picking back up again.
My body was telling me to slow down. Anxiety and stress can do crazy things to your body and can even mimic a heart attack. I needed to start taking care of my body. I needed to start watching what I was putting in, start working out again, and I needed to do some work on my heart, mind, and spirit. This is the reason I started this blog back up again. I hadn’t written anything in six years, but I needed to start writing again. For me writing is a release, I can feel the stress leave my body the moment I hit publish. I knew that I needed a way to help me let go.
I’m saying all this to let you guys know that you are not alone. If you are feeling overwhelmed, stressed, panicky, or whatever evil is breathing down your neck, you are not alone. Reach out. Ask for help. It is not a sign of weakness, but a sign of strength. Send me a message. I am here for you if you just need to vent. I know sometimes it’s easier to open up to a stranger. Listen to your body. Listen to your heart. I know as a mom I tend to push my needs to the side, but I feel like I have become a better mom over the last two weeks because I have given myself a little time to enjoy me again, which makes it easier to be a Mama.
Prayer is a powerful thing. Talk to God. Let Go and Let God.