Dear MaMaw,


My Dearest MaMaw,

So much has changed since you left us. I have had so much going on and so many changes this past year. 2018 has been rough on me. I know you are smiling down on us from heaven. The hardest thing for me to digest is the fact you left us before you could become a great-grandma. My kids will never get the chance to know you like I did. Oh, you would love my boys, so very much. It has been 6 years since you have been gone. Some days I feel like you have been gone a lot longer and other days I feel like I just lost you yesterday. One thing I know for sure, if you were still here with me, I know exactly what you would be doing, what we would be doing, to get through this difficult phase of my life. 

Once you found out the boys were sick, you would drive right to my house, no matter the hours or distance. The moment I let you inside (and stopped bawling my eyes out from relief) you would pass out hugs and kisses and then tell me to go to bed. I wouldn’t object. 🙂 You would spend time giving your full attention to the boys and then once you got them settled you would get busy. I can just see you now. Cleaning my house from top to bottom. I even remember you getting on your knees and cleaning the baseboards when you helped mom clean our house when I was growing up. You would wash all the dirty clothes you could find. You would make a fresh container of sweet tea (brewed, never instant.) Then you would get cooking. Maybe some homemade hot rolls, your goulash, or your chicken spaghetti. I know without a doubt that if we had any leftover rolls the next morning for breakfast you would cut them in half, butter them up, and toast them in the oven and once they were toasted we would slather them with your homemade jelly.

I would wake up from my nap to a clean smelling house with homemade food and sweet tea on my table and freshly bathed boys that were ready for bed. You would take your time rocking each of the boys while telling them each a story. (Oh, how I wish you would have had the chance to rock my babies.) I know without a doubt you would stay as many days as you needed until you felt like I was refreshed and ready to take it over again. You would leave me with a clean house, clean clothes, and a stocked kitchen and promises that you are “only a phone call away.”

Mamawand I

What advice would you give me now? You always knew the right words to say.

Enjoy life, Lana.

It is never to late to make up with family. Fix what you can fix now, don’t wait until it is too late. Love your family.

Manners really do matter. Never underestimate the power of a kind word.

Never turn down a hug.

Vicks fixes everything!

Raise your boys with love and give them wings to fly.

It is never too early to put up your Christmas tree. You must sleep in the living room with the lights on the first night you put it up.

You can eat an entire pan of homemade Rice Krispie treats and the calories don’t count if you don’t tell anyone. 🙂

Every problem can be fixed with a midnight snack. Midnight Snacks: the most important meal of the day and they never make it to your hips. 🙂 🙂

Sometimes crying doesn’t fix everything but add some ice cream, and you’ve got a winner.

Laughter is the best medicine.

my-mamawOh, how I miss you!! I love you, dearly. Thank you for all the memories and words of advice.

Until we meet again,

Your Grand-daughter



  1. Such a great and heart warming post, I can feel how much you miss and love your grandma. You are lucky to have experience lots of good things when she was still alive.

  2. How heart warming! I did not have grandmothers, growing up, and I don’t think I really understand what a missed opportunity that was. It makes me so happy to know of others who have had close relationships with their grandmas! I see it between my mum and my son, and I am so glad you had a close bond with your Mamaw!

    • Thank you. She was definitely a special lady. I’m sorry you didn’t get that opportunity, but so glad you get to watch that bond between your mom and son.

  3. Love this! I lost my dad 7 years ago and I feel the same way about him never getting to meet my daughter. Time does not heal ALL wounds, but it does make them easier to deal with! Just know she is smiling down on ya’ll and she knew your babies before you did!

    • Thank you so much for taking the time to make such a sweet comment. I am so sorry about your dad. I know that isn’t easy. I love what you said about she knew my babies before I did. I have never looked at it that way, but I love that! Thank you.

  4. She sounds like she was amazing! Thanks for posting your touching memories of all of the ways she supported you and your babies. What grit and love she shared with you and your family.

  5. This is beautiful. I miss my grandmother so much! They tell us the darnest things but they funny part is…is that we still live by their principles today and I love it!

  6. This was so sweet and touching. I’m always interested in those who have a tight bond with their grandmothers because I didn’t have one with mine. Yours seemed like she was made of magic and I can see why you miss her so!

  7. Oh you made me cry. She sounds like a wonderful Grandma and would have made a great Great-Grandma. Pass on what she taught you to your little ones.

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